Monday, February 27, 2012

It has been awhile since I've blogged.  I am praising God that I never hear Him say, "sorry it has been awhile since I've been with you".  During the time between semesters, I had the opportunity to gather all of the information for the adoption.  We had not yet chosen domestic or international, but I knew where God was leading us.  So I jumped in with both feet.  I was ready.  What I forgot was that Tim needed to be able to jump in with both feet, yet he seemed to only have a big toe in the same direction as me.  So I hesitated.  It began to get harder to discuss the adoption when I was moving in one direction and he was waiting.  I had to stop.  I prayed for God to bring us together.  I had to let Tim lead.  I had to let God lead him.  So I didn't talk about the adoption with Tim; I talked about it with God.  I prayed for God to lead Tim.  I prayed for Tim to surrender his concerns about the financial cost to God and let God provide what is needed.  After several days of being silent, which was definetely hard but I was willing to wait months or years, Tim called me and said, "we are ready to fill out the application". 

My prayer:
Thank you Lord for answering my prayer.  We want to trust you with each step.  Please don't allow us to think in terms of this world.  You are so much more than what this world can imagine.  Thank you for the wonderful blessing you are bringing to us and the lessons we will learn along the way.  Protect our hearts from doubts or hesitations.  I trust only you.  Thank you for leading us.  In Jesus' name, Amen.